just a bit... I was... and I suspected, I overspent on services, I posted here, I was told in plain English that my spending is extreme and that I must be hypo... I should have at least known to stay as far away from my ex as possible until all this giddiness subsides... no I called him with... ok will explain later but boy it is so hard to always be within limits, so hard... and it is boring too to never be a bit hypo... oh-la-la

i'm just a poor little bp, i need a break every once in a while

ok, sleepytime, or else i will f.... up something at work tomorrow and that would be really bad

it is hard to be a bp, it is as if I talk and act without any pre-thinking or analysis

I wish I went on this board instead of phoning my ex

now I cannot see my daughters either because the court order has visitation in his discretion and he is fed up with me, but the tougher part for me (weird, I know) is not being in touch with him

ok, tomorrow is another day. i will need therapy. this will cost money, as the only therapist whom i know who can do the job is in private practice.

ex wants a doctor who will wean me off him and then contact him, convince him that i have been weaned off, and then he can listen to what i have to say in some therapist's office once a month