Newtus, you sound exactly like my son. Exactly. He has a lot of trouble coping with "normal" things too. But right now he's on an upswing, and he seems to be doing better. Not fantastic, but better. I believe things will continue to improve for him. And they can for you too. But you really have to stop this thing where you go on medication for a week or two then quit suddenly. You seriously need to get effective help. As far as I can tell you aren't getting effective help right now.

Personally I think you'd benefit from being on medication right now. Then you need to get help putting your life back together. I ran across a peer support group in the Dallas/Fort Worth area recently. If I could find it again, would you be interested in contacting them?