So today T told me he is no longer responding to certain texts or emails. He will not respond to anything asking if he's abandoning me, if he's giving up on me, if everything is ok, if he's mad at me, if he's upset at me or anything along those lines.

He told me he's only reinforcing the behavior by answering them. Part of me understands, then part of me feels rejected. He took some responsibility saying he shouldn't have supported that behavior for so long.

Before I left our session I asked if everything was okay. (he never said I couldn't ask in person, but apparently I can't) He was like are you serious right now?

I feel like every time I mess up I need assurance that our relationship is going to be okay, or I fall apart and panic. I messed up with our boundaries a lot this week which is why I asked. I don't understand why he doesn't understand my need to ask. I was abandoned a lot in the past by people I trusted, so it's still a valid fear for me.

I know he believes I should feel safe and confident in our relationship because he has done nothing to show me otherwise in the last eight months. He just doesn't get the man I looked up to for four years was complelty supportive until the day he left too.

I don't know how to take this or where to go with this now. He's standing firm in his position, but I wish he would meet me halfway. How am I suppose to assure myself that things are okay if he won't let me ask any of those questions? This is so hard.

Advice, opinions?