I am soooooo tired of trying to dig myself out of this rabbit hole. Nothing works and things only keep getting worse. I have heard the standard "Oh things will get better, they have to" or "Oh God has a plan for you". I say bull chit, I have been doing nothing but busting my azz trying to make lemonade out of lemons for 4yrs now and now even the lemons I have to work with are only the rotten ones. I feel like taking one of these rotten lemons out of the pile and throwing at the next person that tells me how things will get better when NOTHING ever changes no matter how hard I try.