Well you have the acronym "IDK" in my head now, thanks to you, and it really is the only answer I have. IDK!!

I guess my own experience of coming off meds was really similar. I was worn down to a point where I kind of had accepted that taking meds would be the easy way out (if that makes any sense) -- especially socially, in terms of pdoc/CPN/family pressure. It was really tough to come off and face all that uncertainty and lack of support from those people. It was the right decision for me, though. Me, I'm not so much guilty as angry about everything, so yeah. IDK!!

A big part of my 'coming off' was reading lots about psychiatric survivors and knowing that there were people who had escaped the system and lived to tell about it and did great things once they were out. So was having something to do every day and having at least one person who saw things the way I did and who could support me.

IDK IDK IDK I guess the thing is that coming off meds . . . it doesn't work unless you know how you're going to cope. There is an incredible amount of pressure to stay on them, and you have to be galvanised to fight that AS WELL AS being ready to cope with your actual problems. It's really tough. I wish I could say more to help you.