i know it hurts but i think your t is doing the right thing in the long run. you'll never learn to feel secure if you are being constantly reassured from external sources. but i do feel for you because i can imagine how difficult this is for you. especially in light of what you said about john. but i think it will be good for you, when you realise that your T is not going to abandon you just because he doesn't answer all your emails or texts anymore.