to bootcamp t. with no resistence allowed. at all. just plow through the trauma. she keeps saying if i dont want to do the work. then maybe now isnt the right time to be in t. but i do want to do it. just not so fast. but i cant tell her that. she will say im not ready then. im scared to resist anything with her now. ill just have to make myself do it. ready or not. theres no worry of attachment here. not going to happen.

the homework and poems went ok. it was because i didnt want to do that empty chair thing. but its the first time she asked.

do you usually do the empty chair. in a third session. maybe the other ts were too gentle.