How has therapy helped you if it did? I've never really actually benefited from therapy because it was always trauma based. How has it directly helped you with bipolar? I don't want to be in therapy for a long time. I find this site has been useful as far as opening up about how I am thinking/maybe feeling? I don't know I guess I am a bit scared to open up after the last time I did...I ended up going completely bonkers..it is hard, obviously, talking about past issues that I feel shouldn't be touched. I went thru 5 merri-go-counselors in less than a year and I feel like all of them just wanted to talk about my childhood. I am not a child anymore obviously and I don't feel it is necessary to dwell on things I have no way of going back and changing. Does a light bulb go off as soon as every memory/feeling gets drug out of you? I mean if one does then I'm all for it but all I know is it causes more **** than fixes things.

Also another question. Do you guys tend to blame everything on your mental illness like I feel anxious, must be the bp or I feel lonely, must be the bpd...is there a balance that you have found that makes you not even go there after a while? Like just owning your thoughts and nothing more? Sorry I'm really struggling.