I believe you can make it right, but main point is to forgive yourself. We all make mistakes along the way. Sometimes huge mistakes that feel like they will loom over us forever, but with time it will get better. You have your daughter now to be strong for. Try to be resilient and keep perspective. This is life, everyone on their own path, making mistakes, then learning, helping others, cycle continues. It's ok that your path is different from most of the people in your town, actually a good thing I think to be unique. You sound like you've learned much in a short amount of time. Try to tell yourself good things, and be kind to yourself.