I am in exactly the same position as you. I drink and smoke pot every day, despite having depression and eating disorders and knowing that it doesn't help me at all. Like you, my friends and my ex who I'm still close to all do it as well- so it feels normal to me. The problem, I think, is that drugs and alcohol ARE my coping strategy- until I find another healthier way to cope I will struggle to stay away from them. I will add you to my msn- I'm cammilla.c@hotmail.co.uk . Maybe we can give each other encouragement, or even just chat through how we're feeling! Best of luck, hopefully talk soon xxx