I don't understand how I could be so lucky, and have so many things to be thankful for but at the same time still be completely and totally miserable. I always have these break downs and I fail to know what exactly my problem is so I assume I have depression. Actually I am pretty sure I do because not too long ago, like maybe a couple of months back my doctor prescribed me antidepressants which I refused to take. Kind of regretting that. When I get my job I'm investing in a new cell phone, a car, and a psychiatrist. Sounds good. Just have to get my priorities straight I guess. Lord, just please help me. Please.