This is the first post in which I share some stuff about whats been in my head. It's kind of weird, I must say, knowing that many people are going to read this.

Anyway, I felt kinda dead today. I was really tired and felt like I had no energy. I've been thinking a lot about relationships in my life. I am really antisocial right now, and I really dont feel like meeting new people...well, except in here. I just feel like I need to be alone; put energy into feeling better.

I am an introvert, so being around people drains me. Also, being profoundly hearing impaired doesnt help...actually it makes it worse.

Another thing is, I have this friend who I met through my T. I havent talked to her in a while. Im guessing shes busy. She's hearing impaired like me, and she's acting as kind of a mentor for me. I'd like to email her, but for some reason I just dont feel like it. What would I say? I dont even know where to start. Plus, I'm not sure how much I can share with her.

You know how depression is...its very very dangerous for relationships. I think part of it is that I feel like I cannot trust her, or that she doesnt like me; which of course is destructive thinking, right? I dont know.

Dysthymia -- someone ought to write a poem or prose about how destructive it really is. I'm a writer, so I'll start one, and I'll be sure to share it with you guys.

Thanks for listening. Take care of yourselves.