I get so tired of not fitting anywhere. I'm not going to change who I am and make stuff up so I can fit. Sometimes I think people are pretending for fun, not sure what's real with it. I just know the little girl is not me because we are not awake at the same time. I know sometimes I'm talking and I don't really know what I'm saying. I know sometimes I turn on myself when I'm babbling on about something and hit myself saying stop it stop it. I am so tired of trying to be a person. My others are dealing with my life and continuing to live it when I am unable. It is still my life they are living. We are all pieces of the same pie and living one life. The anger one makes it more difficult. I feel that when she is triggered I can't stop what's happening. It isn't a good outcome for me, but the choices are not totally wrong. The little girl wants attention, the little girl does things that I hate sometimes, but I could not get out to stop it. We share a common life, so not did? Just two others so not did? No names so not did. Not going to pretend to be something I'm not to fit in.