Nope not weird Designer
Everybody is different and experience dissimiliar symptoms does that mean that one is more DID than another because of their level of dissociativeness? Is that why this is unique?
And an uncommon diagnosis for a common disorder?
Is that why health professionals are scared to diagnose it due to the unique differences between?
Is that why they want to scrub it from the DSM V?
Trying to find commonalities even amongst us with such differing symptoms surely causes one to question themselves and their diagnosis?
Are we strong? Are we smart?
Why?
No one taught me how to be this way I raised myself because the adults in my life were either ignoring my existence, abusing me emotionally/ physically/sexually
The bullies at school picked on me and I had to sort that out myself and christ help you if you picked on me or another person who was not the norm because morally I could never turn my back on someone being abused even at a young age and I would meet violence with violence hey I learnt it from my parents and they only ever cared if I got hurt or I hurt someone else badly
I ran away with a friend to escape my parents and I felt empowered and then I called mother dearest and told her where I was because I was scared to an outsider I'm just a typical 12 yo girl and the police wanted to know why? and I told them that Iwanted to see the world because I knew they wouldn't believe me
After that I made sure I was an outsider I didn't trust anyone and I made sure I was left alone by looking dangerous
then I looked like a hippy
then I looked preppy
I was still me....
Then I was the bad girl in class
then the class clown
then I was the smart girl
then I was the school captain
I was still me....
I finished school and I never visited my peers from high school I never visited my fave teachers either I moved on
Uni the same
Worklife the same
I change and I change however its never a conscious decision and I don't feel as though I have DID
And then I have it and what the hell do I do
I do what I do to cope with this stigmatising, big brother world, never tell me that I'm wrong because how would you know. You are not me, you have never been what I have been through and I don't need to rationalise it. My life has been a constant stream of check and balance and I have managed to be quite successful in career and picking a life partner.
And now apparently I can't even get the freaking symptoms for the DID right because another did not experience those feelings exactly.
There are so many differing shades of this illness mores the pity that no one bloody researches it because it must be too hard...
Just like its too damn hard to look after a child who's depending on you or be kind to someone that is being victimised and put through more emotional abuse at school, or at work re relational aggression (quite interesting look it up) further making it important that one must ensure that those bastards never win.
Did anyone ever think that the reason that DID and BPD since the 80's are becoming more common place is because society has had a massive paradigm shift in sharing experiences and learning from them and improving life for future generations instead of what stays behind closed doors stays there?
Do you think it's further compounded by anger issues associated with denial and the fear of stigmatism that stops us from seeking the help in the first place?
Sorry I just vented but I've been thinking these things all day post reading an earlier response