I appreciate all of the responses. I know my situation is triggering for a lot of people. I really appreciate the support.

I'll be ok. I know it. T1 knows it. We have discussed this at great length. It's just such a sad thing. It's like elliemay said - it hurts, but it's not catastrophic. I am healthy enough that I can keep it from taking over. I am able to use perspective.

Still sucks though.

I still don't want to go talk to T2 today. I think it will be good for me to see him though. I keep generating new "faults" of his. Time for a dose of reality.