Thanks you guys for ya'll reply.

There have been to many times to count that I have told my husband what a good guy he is, how sexy he is (especially when we are dressed up to go out) but he won't say how I look unless I ask. Then it is usually "you look fine". Its like I said, he words of I love you are suppose to say it all.

I know men are very different from women. I have learned his moods, when he wants to be a lone when he wants attention and so forth. But he doesn't know mine.

He knows how depressed I can get only because I tell him (only on occassion) He can be so supportive in that situation. Take for instance today, which started off better than yesterday, but very quickly ended up bad. He has to leave for a few days he will be back tuesday. and I just started balling. He asked what was wrong. But I know he had to leave and didn't have time to sit and talk this out with me. But he called me on his way and we talked for a few minutes.

I did proceed to tell him that I felt that he would be better off if he didn't have a wife that was crazy. He gave a little chuckle and you must be crazy because I would be a mess without you, I would probably be in jail or worse without you. He also said that he didn't understand my thinking, that I had just not gotten to the point where I felt good about myself. He made me feel good for a while. He also told me that Your always doing stuff for your mom and grandma, and sister who is a total mess. Like I said he is a good guiy. But sometimes he doesn't notice me, unless I say somethling.

I have tried to convince myself how much I make a difference to the people around me. but i feel that tooting my own horn. I have my moments, The western booth at the show was very cool. I am proud of that. Our showroom at our main warehouse is my job, and when I get through with it everymonth I like the job I did.

I will tell you that when I get home and my oldest cat is waiting at the door to greet me and say hello it brings a smile to my face, and my ferrets, i got them at the ferret rescue shelter, when they come to me and want to play or just follow me around and see what I am doing. That makes me feel that I have done something right, Ivey my albino female was brought up by two little girls who played very rough, so she was a biter, but she has learned that all she has to do to get my attention is come near me. I feel good that I made a difference in that little creatures life

But, there are those days, that no matter what anyone says I feel like a door knob has more purpose and value than me.

I will reread ya'll replies again. I want to thank ya'll again.