I think im bad at explaining myself lol.

I stopped smoking 6 weeks ago per my pdocs request, once i did stop i saw it was easier to stop the switching, where as on marijuanna, it was extremely difficult to and it seems that the marijuanna increased my dissociation. I started smoking about a year after i was diagnosed DID, and would smoke occassionally but not always since it created many effects alcohol did with me. Blackouts, numbness, back burner feeling (that i felt as if i were in the back seat watching myself and listening but not controlling)

But when i started having eating issues due to celiacs, i got it perscribed and started using regularly. It wasnt as intense of a "high" after a while but i seemed to be dissociating regularly, i didnt even realize how much until i stopped. When i look back, with the knowledge of DID that ive recently started to learn, i see that i was dissociating a great deal more when smoking, now i can go a few days without dissociating, and when i do i can more easily ground myself. But while using marijuanna it was much much more difficult to ground.

I spent the last two years grounding numerous times a day every day it seemed, now i only have to when im triggered (for the most part, although yesterday was bad and i havent been able to determine a trigger)

My head feels more out of the fog without smoking, and i dont constantly feel like im being pulled away. Im just curious to know if it was the marijuanna causing the increase in my dissociation or the stress ive been under the last two years with the accident, moves, seizures, dog attack and a lot of triggers coming into my life. But it seems i can handle it more now that ive stopped smoking and while i cant control the switching completely, without the marijuanna my attempts at grounding have become much more effective.

Thank you amandalouise for your response, i was hoping you would respond as your responses are always very helpful