I don't know how old you are now, other than you are a teen... But I hear you saying you want to feel better. One thing you haven't tried that might work, and it has worked a loit for me, is listening to your doctor and trying to take the meds. It's no guarantee to solve all of your problems, and often therapy is needed also to treat depression, but it could help you. Depression is a brain disorder and often it is because our brains are not quite functioning right. The medication is made to help your brain work correctly, which can lead to you feeling better. Just my thoughts... I hope you are able to find some help and begin to feel better. Thanks for posting and I'm glad you are here.