I think that you attending the day program (whether you can see T or not) will only strengthen your relationship with T Lost. I know that is what has happened for me in the past. When I have done what T has asked me to do, as much as I haven't wanted to and fought it, our relationship became stronger- and stronger- even though I thought it would kill me in the mean time. There have been times when I've been so distraught over what she's asked that I thought I couldn't go on, but because I was so desperate and afraid that if I didn't do what she asked, she leave and not help me anymore, I did what she asked. AND.............. (as I sheepishly hang my head in humility and embarassment) I have to say she was right all along. Both times. In TRUSTING my T and doing what she asked me to do, our bond became closer and I became better.

it is definetly a leap of faith Lost, but, if you REALLY trust your T, no matter how hard it is, you can do it and come out of it ok. HUGS, hugs and HUGS to you!