I don't understand why my mom expects me to help her, but she doesn't expect too much from my brother. I'm struggling here, and he's alright. If he'd sell his collector car, and not buy so much computer equipment, he wouldn't be living paycheck to paycheck. I'm living paycheck to negative paycheck. I feel so left behind. My mom helped my brother get the down payment for his house. She took it out of her retirement money. When he did his taxes a year later, he paid her back. Years ago, my brother stole $700 from my mom because at that point he was unemployed, but all was forgiven. He asked our estranged grandma (not the one who died) for $4,000 to buy a Jeep. He never finished paying her back. She just lost her son (my dad,) and I was the one there by his and her side in the hospital. My brother couldn't brave it out to come see my dad one last time. I don't get why he was so mad at my dad. How did having no child support really affect him today? He's doing pretty well now. Maybe he was just ashamed because he never paid my grandma back. She's on a fixed income though. I would never dare to ask anyone for money who was on a fixed income. As for college, I qualify for grants and federal loans, so I don't need tuition money. I was just hoping for a place to live without having to worry about living expenses. If I got a college education, and could work a decent job, I could end up supporting my mom when she retires.........if she even needs me to. She's got like 10 more years unless she retires early. I just feel so bad that no one can help me get ahead, but they all seem to have received some sort of help. I guess I'll just have to improve my credit the next 4 years, and take out a living expense loan, and then focus on college. I could take a few classes in the mean time, I suppose. A year ago, I found a letter my uncle had written to my other grandma (both have since died.) He was telling her how my brother bought a house, and a dog, and all this stuff. About me, he wrote, that he thinks I work at Target. Ouch. I didn't know my own family thought of me as being so unsuccessful. ANYWAY, I'm rambling. I guess I just wanted other people's opinions on whether I'm being totally unreasonable asking for some help in order to complete my education.