People sometimes don't get it how raising kids consumes all your energy. Kind of sounds like T judging you, and that's not right (sorry if I'm totally wrong). You're doing the best with what you got. You already have a hard situation, don't beat yourself up and double punish yourself. I live with my mom too, and the 3 kids. This is just our situation that works for us. People will still want to date you! And when you're ready you can go explore some of that. Try to reason through the idea that you're a failure... there's NO way that's entirely true. You do good things like going to therapy and teaching your children, and we all love you here xoxo