I'm bipolar, but I have never experienced any symptoms outside of the one incident that got me diagnosed, which I still believe has nothing to do with bipolar disorder. Odds are, I likely am. My grandmother on my dad's side is bipolar. One minute I'm at the mall, the next I'm taken to a hospital and suddenly I'm Harry Potter, which I think is a natural reaction to the fear of being crazy.

Now, I'm working on coming completely off the meds. At first, my pdoc rolled his eyes when I told him a month after I am out of the hospital that I want off the meds. 6 months later, he told me getting off the zyprexa would be a good goal. A year later, I am completely off the zyprexa with no symptoms whatsoever, and now he believes that I can get off them.

But don't most people with bipolar...have symptoms? I came back to PC after two years because I thought it would help me get through the symptoms and adjust to a new lifestyle...and that hasn't happened. No symptoms, no need to adjust. Nothing wrong with that, but now I'm questioning if I'm truly bipolar anymore. I read the posts people put here in the BP forum, and I haven't experienced any of that. The only thing I do and have experienced is depression. I've been depressed my whole life up until the incident. Now that I'm on meds, the depression is gone. I've never had any mania growin up beside the one incident. Isn't the point of mania is that it's supposed to be ongoing and reoccuring?

I'm thinking that when I get off the lithium, which my doctor predicted will be a year to a year and a half from now, I will ask to be reexamined. I don't think it will prove anything or erase anything from my medical records...but then at least I'll know for sure...

Idk...I guess I should be happy I'm not affected by it, but I'd rather just not be labeled at all...