((likewater)) - so very sorry you lost your brother to suicide and he was suffering so much. I know some of how you feel because I lost my older brother to suicide 4 yrs ago. I'm also sorry your mother is/was a horrible mother. Regarding your last post - I hope the police are investigating what role your mom played in your brothers death. I also don't think she'll get any of the insurance money, because it was suicide - I would hate to see her benefit any money from this.