I've seen him 4 times now and have a pretty good feeling for him.

He is a kind soul, smart and interesting. He simply doesn't have the credentials and experience that my old therapist had. I can see he is a bit rough around the edges, and in some areas still developing the self discipline of a therapist who had practiced for years and years.

All the really important stuff is there though. He also completely understands my occasional desire to quit everything and become an edible flowers farmer - something my old therapist, a very successful and respected man, never quite understood or would endorse.

To be fair though, we spend most of our time together talking about my old therapist.

I have absolutely no idea how to handle the end of that relationship. It's rough going for sure.

But, if you honor and cherish a relationship, you also honor the emotions at its end. I guess. It's a quandry as to how to do that, but I'm not entirely sure I have to do anything at all. Just be.

Relationships aren't all sunshine and unicorns, sometimes they outright suck. It is and was totally, utterly worth it. It was transforming.

So, I move forward in my new life with a good, kind person to help with the transition and homesickness.

I don't know why I posted this. Just did I guess.

Beats being that crazy lady out howling at the moon surrounded by cats for sure.