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Having lost a loved one to a suspicious suicide recently, there may not be any answers as we may never know why. No matter what, do know that it does not affect or diminish the cherished times, memories, or feelings for your relationship. Hold on to those and be kind and gentle with yourself right now. Trust in what you know and those you love for support; and if there is a T or counselor, please let them in to help. Sending the warmest and kindest of hugs, hang in there.