Havent been able to see T as I was out of town due to dealing with the death and next week she will be on vacation. Will try to see pdoc next week and made appt with church bishop this sunday. Even good memories are too painful right now, but I can focus on my friends and family who are here and how we can appreciate, enjoy each others' company and support each other. My dog is a great comfort and then my kids inside are really hurting. They were mesmerized by a pony next door to my sister. Maybe I will see if I can brush horses or something?? But there aren't so many where I live.