Hey Trippin ((( HUGS ))) Lots of hugs !
Im so sorry your feeling this way ... Allow yourself to reach out to someone anyone and keep posting here.. Please ...
I remember not to long ago you seemed to go thru this same hopeless sad angry feeling .. Just remember you pulled yourself out of it... YOU are alot stronger than you know.
Just deep breathe and know your not alone .. You have lots of us here on PC that simple love and adore you .