I really understand your POV on the universal interconnectedness. I've had quite a bit of cognitive dissonance over my spirituality over the past year... Did I adopt that perspective thanks to my mental illness or is it a subjective reality like we all experience? And if it's the latter, how can most things be considered a mental illness? Aren't we all deluded, to a degree, because no one can see the world in the same image as the next person? It boggles my ****ing mind.

I've been questioning my own mental state in the same way you have... Mainly because I've never been to a psychologist. So I'm in this weird middle ground of uncertainty. So I understand where you are right now -- In that same uncertainty thanks to the incompetence of your previous professionals.
It's incredible, though, how similarly we function yet our symptoms are quite different. I am more than likely Schizoaffective if anything because Bipolar symptoms still heavily influence me but my psychosis & the negative symptoms still persist without having an episode. But even though I'm usually going through symptoms, it doesn't impede my functioning to a ridiculous degree unless I have a very serious stressor compounding everything. My ASPD & manic symptoms together are what do me in.

1. Hallucinationatory delusions (experiencing a hallucination/distortion which leads me to form a delusion about its presence. they're much more freaky & intense)
2. Avolition/Cognitive symptoms (disorganised thinking, poor concentration, difficulty integrating thoughts feelings & behaviour.)
3. Regular delusions