Another mood flick, and maybe a rant, but I seriously feel so frustrated.

FXXK with that 'secret' thing. Life gets better when you think positive way all the time and cut the emotion? That's when you 'can'. And I 'cant'

Listened to meditation-supposed things and tried them but I always get tired.

Now I think I have an Angina because my hard feels like getting gripped and it feels extremely uncomfortable.

I don't know, I just don't want to live like this. My mood swing is so unpredicatable, and people say I'm so unpredictable... Yes. I can't even control that unpredictable thing myself.

Seriously I am getting older and this is getting worse.