um... how do you guys mean 'a higher level of something you are missing'?

i'm not really sure what you mean... some of my t's have been really very lovely people. friendly and gentle. i am more irritable and i can sometimes come across as hostile though i don't mean to be. i guess they taught me something... in the sense of modelling kindness and stuff...

but... i still think the t who helped me the most was able to engage with me... and also modelled kindness and compassion.

i don't know. fit can be hard.

i guess i can't just accept t's interpretations without really thinking about them. sometimes i extend them and realise that it applies to me more generally than i had thought. sometimes i don't accept them because they don't really feel right. i'm willing to talk them through and sometimes i come around... but sometimes i don't.

i mean... it is my life. t can help... but t doesn't know everything... i guess i think of therapy as t trying to help me make sense of my life.

i don'tknow.