My pdoc recently signed me off work for a few days for paranoia/psychosis, neither of which is very severe. I am more or less able to identify my thoughts as incorrect (afterwards), but I don't know why they are there in the first place.

Example: it was the Belgian national holiday yesterday and my neighbour downstairs told me that there would be a military parade on our road. I started thinking, why are they on my road and not someone else's, my doctor has sent them to punish me etc etc. I know rationally that he could not have (?) but I could not shake the thought. In the end there was no parade, so now I am thinking that maybe the neighbour never said that, hell maybe she wasn't even there. Even though I 'know' that she did and she was. That sort of thing.

My mood is absolutely fine, so no other indication of illness at all.

So here's my question to the board: how do you live not being able to trust your thoughts and know what is real and what is not?

Secondly, how do you ensure other people trust you and don't write you off as 'mad' so to speak? How do you get credibility and dignity back?

I haven't told other people, just my pdoc and bf, but this is another thought I can't shake. So I am wondering what this board makes of this phenomenon, and how you guys manage this in your lives.

Thanks a lot - I'd really appreciate your input and suggestions.

BB