I've never come across anything quite as simple and wishful hopeful and useful Ophelia
"...just want it to be a dud"

I'm wondering yep I've thought that way myself before but not with those exact words. ....can I borrow them for when I sense a real wobbly comin on?

...it reminds me it's like a large and personal bomb lands in the house after crashing suddenly through the roof but it aint gone off and it's just sittin' there....and ya' just stand there staring at it ...hoping it's a dud!....and after a bit just very gently take it outside and leave it in the pile with all the others.

aaaah! wow it took be about 30 minutes to write this damn phone kept ringing and had to get it. my brains a bit like a bag of wet peanuts at the moment so not much help but I'm glad you are strong and hanging in ....fuzzy monkey head happy with that...