I was also the one picked last for everything. The 3 worst combination of words in school were: "find a partner"
I was extremely shy. Now, as an adult, I am having trouble finding a partner so the same issues from childhood seem to haunt me, the same loneliness. The only difference is that as a child I used to cry in a closet at home, but now I can openly cry in my empty apartment (only my 2 cats listen).
Feel so stuck... don't want to live my whole life like this...