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Originally Posted by Secretum
Ever since I first started experiencing symptoms at age 12, I've felt different. Many times, I've felt like I was "going crazy". Long before I was dx'd, I knew that something was wrong with me. I feel like I have almost nothing in common with "healthy" people.
How about you? Did you know that something was wrong before you were diagnosed? Do you feel "broken" now? Or do you feel normal?
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since I was 20 I spose....I have been in some sort of therapy Secretum.
my initial problems arrived due to me believing the entire world around me was broken and not just a couple of cracks but truly shattered!!
...funny how the therapy increased as the balance shifted from my perceptions getting me in all sorts of trouble I could no longer hide that it was me that was broken and likely always was and it brings tears to my eyes to admit this.
I never decided to make all the mistakes I made...just a few to be defiant but over 40 specialists later it's so very tempting to feel 'broken' because of the nature of mental illness always being something to fix.
damn I really do feel broken in many ways but at times I feel so complete if I could just limit my manic adventures and to just some scratches or a couple of cracks then maybe I might only need a 'bit' of repairing.
I failed so much therapy being forced to stare at the floor at all the busted up pieces of me wasn't fair nope.