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Originally Posted by costello
My son was such a happy, loving little boy. What happened?
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my parents said that about me. i felt a definite shift when i hit puberty at 9 but before then i was sad inside. thats what i remember.
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Originally Posted by costello
Going into psychosis from a very slight stress seems to be typical.
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i can see that.
i cant handle stress easy at all.
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Originally Posted by costello
I've been listening to Daniel Goldman's Social Intelligence. He talks about how some babies are born with a greater startle reflex and get stressed by new things. These babies tend to become shy children. BUT ... if the parent pushes the naturally shy child to go outside his or her comfort zone, he or she will become bolder. The children whose parents shielded them remained timid.
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i was told i was a shy child but i CAN say by age 13 if anything is when i started withdrawing. i became gothic - renounced my religion and became an athiest (i dont remember why really. i am back to my religion not long after i did that) - i started cutting myself - i ended up in my first psych hospital with severe depression after attempting to hang myself...yea.
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but idk HOW i got into that. i had no friends then too (like now).
anyway the main points are. i started going downhill fast after that. then i started smoking cigarettes and did some pot at 15. i withdrew from people more than ever. i still do and the asocialness increases every year. but right now i think ive hit as bad as i can get so it can only level out. i mean i leave my house 1-2 times a week maybe 3. i know NO ONE except my 3 family members..parents etc. i dont work. ill do school online. i dont go out to social stuff. etc etc etc.