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Originally Posted by hartbroken
Did I ever have faith? I thought I had faith at one time. I don't know if it's my fault or not. I can't find God and He knows that. I have no interest in anything, totally depressed and manic at the same time. It's a living hell. I just don't want to suffer forever from mental torture. Does anyone hear me?
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Dear Hartbroken,
I hear you loud and clear. I am also afraid of suffering forever in a hell that will be much worse than this. I just keep reminding myself that we have an enemy of our soul - demons and the devil who love to lie to us. They make us think that God is not there for us or doesn't care. But God is near to the brokenhearted and He cares for the oppressed. He understands mental torture. Jesus died at the hill called Golgotha, the place of the skull. He endured mental agony on the cross saying father why have you forsaken me. He knows how we feel. The truth is that He loves us and He is the author and finisher of our faith. He has given to every man a measure of faith - so you have some! Keep crying out to Him in your pain. I'm praying he gives us some relief soon. Grace and peace.