Hey greysfan Im sorry your going through such a hard time right now. I know what you mean as I did the same thing, hell I even ran my friends off by being an *** at times. But I found and youll see this to, I hope, no I know youll see it, is that you can always re introduce yourself to society, its not easy but well worth the effort it takes. The only way to start is to just do start with your close friends. Thats my advice. I hope this helps you, if not im sorry.