i find it hard to talk to people , and this is starting to get me down,
i want to be able to ask for help or tell people how im feeling without feeling like im mad,
my wife started to talk to me yesterday about last summer and i found it so hard to talk to her that i pretended to go to sleep , after we had stoped talking i just lay there thinking about how much i had hurt her, and that she didnt deserve to have been put through all that.
she was there for me when i needed her the most (after both my suicide attempts ) she didnt have to but she was and for that i am so greatful, she is my rock

i have found that i can talk a bit better on this forum site , so i would like to say to my wife that i am sorry for all i have done to you and the kids and that i love you all,
(((((((((((((KATHERYN))))))))))))))))))) + (((((((((((((((((((((KIDS))))))))))))))))))))))