I have tryed a ton of antidepressants in my life work for a while then blah

I am 39... I get irritible...having triplets sure helps tht LOL thank God for my sense of humor...anyway I can not keep my house neat I have three wallets 10 notebooks..clothes in every room three dressers for me all in different rooms I am driving. Me nuts..large crowds make me crazy...f I am interested in something I can do it forever..I just can't organized and getlow energy whenn it comes to anything like gota get angry to the point of being irritionl...so strted treatmentt for adhd four of my kid have it...ths is nuts feellike u tke the pill then three hrs later u know u have to have more cause u feel blah fidgety angry I see tht in my kidtoo I don't want to be prescribed into being addicted to something or does a certain dose and times to take fix this tht is wht I am thinking I already have played around with amount and breaking up doses..made it all over posts peeps trying to make ths work...its amphetamines I guess its the nature of the beast. Advise help...should I try longer I am mad cause I thought after 40 yrs I may have found an answer..plus I take care of four 7 yr olds all my biological kids...and they all have mood disorders going nuts here.