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Originally Posted by BlueInanna
I have to go to a wedding today. I feel so nervous about the crowds and people I won't know. I'm going as a date, so I might not know anyone. And I'm having some racing thoughts, **** what if I talk to fast to people or talk nonstop and they nod politely, or the opposite could happen!
Last wedding I was supposed to go to, I missed because I was having a meltdown. The bride my friend still hasn't forgiven me. When I started to explain to her about my depression (she is a psychotherapist, I thought she might understand) and was about to tell her I newly had a BPII dx, she told me her mom was BP and they don't get along,  so I did not end up telling her.
Then at another wedding, my friend the bride was starting to have a meltdown, and I told her it will be ok, she can always get a divorce doh!! Luckily she laughed and said she's just stressed about the lei's and headwreaths not about marrying him. What was I thinking? sheesh!
I think maybe weddings are just stressful for me and I will hopefully feel better after a shower. Thanks for letting me ramble and process my mixed up thoughts and feelings.
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weddings are a real nightmare for nearly everyone involved....it's a psychotic demonstration of love between two people.
my mum remarried in a nice little garden with just a couple of people and that means two!
the whole over abundant emotional extraveganza just freaks most people out Blue....
if things are sensitive in your own intimate life it's like walking into a minefield...every step has the potential for delicate but deep explosions within.....unless of course we can separate and think only of the 'couple'....
how long can anyone do that? thats why there is so much alcohol around because no-one expects to give a damn !!
weird things weddings.
I went to one alone and to another one with someone that hated me so it was a disaster each time.....bit cynical here sorry Blue