thanks for everything everyone i swear i'm at the poing that i am just spending the rest of my life drunk and not caring about anything .heck what have i got to loose.NOTHING .and i can even SI to my hearts content got nothing to loose.god i hate life so bad i have tried to calm down and it isnt working at all.my husband wants to take me to the clinic but no way i hate that plae and i'm not going.i'm doing the same thing they will do but with alcohol and SI