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such is life... · Jul 22, 2012, 06:10 PM

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Originally Posted by PurpleFlyingMonkeys

Communication isn't their best quality, they like to stay hidden from me, unless I'm not looking for it. Don't know how to get better inner dialogue or whatever it's called, I'm working on it but they never seem to want to talk to me, only eachother... So frustrating

((((PurpleFlyingMonkeys))))( thank you so much for your support) My core part is only one years old,we keep her safe deep down and we try not to wake her. My T drew us a picture a very simple one she put the core( the original part that was born) then there is a wall that is built around her, then we have our major splits and splits of splits.My T says as parts are integrated the core will age with the body.
Most of our parts have not aged with the body.We have a very interacate System.There are divisions, kind of like an internal "city" There is even a hierarchy IE..The Colonel is the head and he can send messages through out the System , then Daniel, Kimberly and on and on it goes....we have protector parts(the protectors have their own charges they are responsible for),teen parts and little ones,some only hold a memory(ies),some perform living functions,some hold down jobs,some relate to the out side world I have several of them we call those parts Hosts(me) like you were saying they are usually out in front and these parts are the most mature and capable of dealing with people in the present time.They are like my front line people they are able to interact with the public so that keeps the rest of us safe. I am not co-conscious with all my parts.Some times they will talk to me but mostly they talk to each other having been dissociative all my life I am quite used to the internal noise.Have I helped in any way or have I confused you more?Sometimes I am grateful for all my alters but I'm at a point in my life where they are causing me more trouble then in the past. I have been working with a new T for about a year and I am healing quite a bit she has 20 years experience working with d.i.d....she is tough...sometime we wish we could throw things at her ( soft things of course) and there are time we want to hide under her desk,times when little ones want to hold on to her legs and peep around because they feel safe , times when we have cussed her out,times when we want to keep on driving and never go back and times when we don't know what else to do but show up for our appointments.She accepts all of us and knows that each alter has a job,an assignment or reason for being.We are learning to communicate internally. Sorry If I have bored you to death.(Thats a group hug from all of us) such is life...