I wish I could put him out of my mind. If there was a switch I could flip that was instant...and could allow me to put him out of my mind and heart. I would flip it in a minute. But I cant right now. I love him. Living, breathing, committed, devoted, true love. I know that sounds corny but is true. After 4 years and even after he has done this to me, I still get butterflies for him. I always wanted to help him be a better person because I always felt he brought out the best in me. I just love him.