Thanks for all the replies. The sick thing about this is I do love his attention. I agree though it stems from craving approval from my dad who was very distant in my childhood and my spouse, who is getting better as he learns how to show feelings. My spouse finds it hard to open up as he did not have a dad and his mom just ignored him.

So I realize I am not genuinely in love with T as it is simply I am getting what I want but in his therapy room through him. So he is filling a void.

UGH. And he is not normally a man I would even be physically attracted to. I will keep updating as I go along. Part of this is all creepy but also I love the attention and compliments he pays me. The ***** and role playing freaked me out though but with all the compliments last session, it seems it made up for it. I just find I am on such an up an down roller coaster of feelings with him.