Hi greysfan, I am sorry you are feeling like this! When we get depressed we tend to think the world is out to get us that people's are bad and we would be better off alone but really that's not the case! Isolating ourselves from the people who love us and care is social suicide. I to have pushed friends away and family they don't even know I have depression and I think they would feel babe that I couldn't trust them enough to tell them but I need to be alone right now! Have you told your doctor how you are feeling I mean maybe he can change one of your meds(if you are on any) or suggest a support group you could attend! I think once you open up to just one person a part of you will come back because. I am sure your friends miss you being the funny one too:-) I hope you start to feel better soon!