I have kept to my promise not to email my T, but she emailed me today! It was a "forward" about another DBT group. She met the leader at a workshop that she attended and thought it might work out. She had told me I could email about the DBT but I thought it would be better if I didn't email at all. So now I emailed twice, but only about the DBT groups. I feel successful because I did go without emailing until she emailed ME! Her fault, not mine. This is not a big deal. There is a huge difference between these types of informational emails and the kind where I talk about my feelings for her. I KNOW the difference and I feel good that I have handled my feelings on my own this week. I almost cried when I saw that my T emailed me about the group. She truly does care and want what is best for me. She also reminded me about a change in time for this week, which I knew. So that was another okay reason to email me.

I don't think this group will work out because it's farther away and is at night. I read something on line that is making me anxious, and I won't know until I call my insurance. I forgot that places ACCEPT Blue Cross, but that doesn't mean they are "in network." If they aren't, it will cost a lot more than my copay to my T. So, I will call insurance first thing tomorrow morning. If it will cost $50/week because it's not in my network, that's a problem. Plus the cost to see my T. Well, I'm not jumping to conclusions until I talk to my insurance. Wish me luck!