struggling2,

Very much! I avoided all contact with kids as a child as well as a young adult.

My ex-hub and I were married for 10 years before I finally agreed to have children. I just felt extremely uncomfortable with kids (boys and girls). I really didn't want to have children, deep down inside, but I did.

My emotions have made interaction with my girls a struggle from time to time. Some times are more intense than others, for whatever reason. I've always felt very guilty and dark for feeling so uncomfortable with kids. I can't really figure out why this is, but I do.