Sui, I cant seem to stop thinking about that or SI. We pulled out a sharp knife and my step mom said don't think about it half joking but I was thinking about it. I still am thinking about it. I don't wanna end it so no worries as I know it will go away but why cant I stop thinking about Sui and SI, they kinda go hand in hand for me. I just don't know and Im kind of impulsive so Im tempted to just do SI, not to much into ending it like I mentioned. How do I keep from doing it? Do others have this problem? Any idea why I think about it most days and very few I don't think about it. IDK Im rambling now and its only a short paragraph, I feel like a mess right now Im not really depressed but im not happy. IDK What I am. ok I'm gonna end this rant now.