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Originally Posted by Dreamscaper
Looking for an opinion on this, it was brought up to me that I may have multiple personality disorder, primarily after writing something that I have next to no recollection of writing and being written directed at me in the third person via my account. It's not the first time it's happened, I also found a letter I apparently wrote myself after a particularly traumatic event that, while barely legible, was definitely my handwriting despite having no memory of anything the letter described, in this case it was the 'death' of my predecessor which sorta made sense to me but I was obviously alive still and had memories of what happened even if they were distant.
Now I have had other 'personalities' running around in my head for awhile, but I always thought it was my OCD kicking in and reorganizing myself so that I can cram all of one emotion in one definitive shape so that the majority of me can carry on and live normally. I also think that maybe they are just areas where I end up being emotionally unstable and seeing them like I do is an aid in trying to live. Then again I end up writing letters to different parts of myself and have occassional dissassociative episodes. I also tend to think, as someone who enjoys writing fantasy, that the idea is fantastic enough that I'm certainly making it up, but that would also make me one of my characters in a world I did not create, at least I think I didn't. I also have had depression deep enough to induce psychosis so maybe I'm stuck in a psychotic episode and it'll all clear up for awhile afterward.
From what I can identify there are 5 of us. 4 are definitive, 1 is more like a mist that only rarely takes control and when it does it is very brief before failing in the struggle for control. I don't know if descriptions of the parts would help or not.
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my opinion...I would go according to what ever your own treatment providers say about what your diagnosis 's are and what treatments you are on, they are the only ones that can tell you whether you have a mental disorder or not and which ones.
people online anywhere and even just on our own can read anything into even the sipliest sentence. Example on another website I wrote in a post that I said something to someone and did not recall what I said or the context of why I said what was said.. well you can imagine all the replies I got suggesting I had full blown, unintegrated DID...the site was not a general mental health site,, it was one strictly for treatment providers from my town. I was asking for ideas on how to get through to a client who said I stated something I did not, in a way that would de stress the situation for the client..none of my co workers know my past diagnosis was DID.. I know why the situation happened..I had a medication problem with the pharmacy so to see me through the two days before they got the correct meds in, I was on a lower dosage of meds that I had at home, trying to stretch them to last long enough. it was a medication problem not a dissociative one but yet just about every one of my co workers that saw my post diagnosed the problem as being undiagnosed, untreated, unintegrated DID. people can read anything they want to into the most simplest to answer problems.
Ive even done it myself.. I would not remember doing or saying something, blame it on dissociation problems, go to my treatment providers and find out it was lack of sleep, or I skipped some meals, or my meds are off kilter, or it was my depression/bipolar/Multiple Sclerosis related.....
just because someone doesnt remember doing something...does not say the person has DID..any one mental disordered and not has times when they dont remember doing things,...
referring to yourself in the third person in writing, conversations..... well again that doesnt say the person has DID... many great literary authors have wrote in the third person on purpose or accidentally and they were not DID,
the memory problems with DID go beyond this normal realm of forgetfulness that happens to every human being at some point in their lives..
my suggestion dont worry about what other people think and say about you and what you write.. if ***you *** think you may have DID contact your treatment providers, they can refer you to diagnostic tests with a psychiatrist and medical doctors that can rule in or out all the different normal life, medical problems and mental disorders that share these same symptoms you are concerned about. so that you will know for sure whether what is happening to you is from your already diagnosed problems or something new dissociative or otherwise.