hi I'm back my husband brought me to the clinic and it was my NPso at least she knows me and wasnt going to pump me up with drugs.she did give me some atavan to help me calm down and sleep tonight but other then that as long as i wasnt going to harm myself(i ididn't) it was ok for me to go home and see my T. am a lot calmer and tired because i didn't sleep at all last night and only some the night before.thanks for all you the suport you guys have given me my family sucks and i do just need to deal with that but it hurts